Its a mess...

“Peace is not something you can force on anything or anyone… much less upon one’s own mind. It is like trying to quiet the ocean by pressing upon the waves. Sanity lies in somehow opening to the chaos, allowing anxiety, moving deeply into the tumult, diving into the waves, where underneath, within, peace simply is.” — Gerald May

Therein was the challenge. The quest for peace and tranquility when the world was nothing but uncertainty and chaos. There are some thing that are harder to obtain than others. No DUH! you say.

Finding peace is a goal. Achieving it, I've learned, doesn't come in a long and sustained place. Maybe its different for you. Maybe you've grown to the place where you live with tranquility and quiet 'knowing'. I'm not there. Peace has come to be moments. Sometimes the huge revelations that are partnered with only half an hour of peace, 10 minutes when I've not had fights with the thoughts and the lies. Sometimes peace looks like seeing a mom console her daughter, sometimes peace feels like a wonderful but painful piece of art work.

I'm learning that while peace may be my goal, right now, at this time in my life its not what God wants for me. To be in frustration and anger might be exactly where God wants me to live.

Really? Really.

Its about acceptance of being where God wants you to be and many times, that doesn't feel comfortable. It doesn't mean its rose petals and sweet aromas. Right now it means fighting, anger and honoring the lessons in those things that bring strife.

God is good...God uses our uncomfortableness to draw us to Him.

~~Jo Ann